I have decided to quit. Not just NaNoWriMo, but writing in general. I will never be a published author and it’s time that I accept that. So, I updated my word count with everything I’ve done so far, and it will increase a little bit because I’ll be co-writing scenes with Sotalia so that hers gets done. But I doubt I’ll hit 50K like that.
It’s just not supposed to be hard like this. I understand that it’s hard to get published, but it shouldn’t be hard to write. I shouldn’t feel guilty about it. I shouldn’t sit down to do it and feel like I’m shirking my responsibilities. I shouldn’t feel like I’m neglecting my daughter. But I do.
So if it comes down to my family or my writing, and it seems that it has, I choose my family. I’ll just have to get used to being an utterly normal person.
I hope this will make my husband happy.