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The Real Problem   2 comments

I had an epiphany.

I’ve had this project I wanted to work on, for over a year. But every time I had a chunk of space, I couldn’t get into it. And not even just couldn’t get into it. I mean I had this feeling like I shouldn’t even be thinking about it even though it’s a project that I love and can get fired up about and can be turned into a vehicle to get more of my writing out there. All of the positives of this project meant nothing, when the feeling came up to make me feel bad about the project. Now, some people might say “That’s God telling you not to do it.” Those people would be wrong. In fact, I’ve very clearly received a kick in the pants from God on this very issue. It surprised me, because I hadn’t realized until that moment that God had anything to do with it. The writing didn’t seem particularly godly, and the person I’d be working closely with is not a Christian, so it never dawned on me that it was of interest to God beyond the principle that all things should be done as if for the Lord.

So it wasn’t God holding me back. What was it? It would seem like something God wanted me to do, once I knew was something He wanted, would be pretty high up in the priorities, right? But still that feeling nagged at me. And finally, I figured out what it was. And once I really truly figured out what it was, I was able to unpack it and examine it and put it away. But just in case it should plague other Christian writers, I wanted to speak about it here.

BookshelfI was a writer before I was a Christian. Whether you count from my childhood decision to follow Christ or from my adult decision that led me back to God, the fact remains that I was a writer first. I learned to read, so that I could write. I have a vivid memory of being about five and I was writing something, but I didn’t know a lot of words, so I had to ask my mother how to spell just about every single word that I wanted to write. How she was so patient, I will never know. What I was writing, I have no idea. But I remember the incident very clearly.

All that to say that many of the stories locked in my head are not “Christian” stories. I would estimate that about 90% of my characters are not Christian. Do I love Christian fiction? As long as it’s good, yes. I have a great appreciation for Christian romance novels because I feel like I’m getting two love stories for the price of one. There’s the love story between the two individuals and the love story between God and Man. They are often very beautifully written and I love the way the chosen Scriptures speak to the conflict. But I cannot write Christian romance. I have tried. It is not what God has gifted me with. It is not inside me to produce. And that is the real problem I’ve been having.

Several years ago, a member of our church was asking about my writing and asked if all my stories had the Gospel in them. I said no, because that’s the truth and their response was to ask “Why not?” And the unspoken part of that question, the part that I heard, though it wasn’t said, was what kind of Christian writes stories that don’t contain the Gospel? What kind of Christian writes stories where the express purpose isn’t to convert the masses? What is the point of writing, as a Christian, if it’s not to bring others into a greater understanding of God’s desire to be in their lives?

And all of that unspoken junk has kept me from really seriously writing since then. I was in a lull at the time and even when I’ve attempted to break from that lull, that sense of shame, of not measuring up, has pulled me back. So, here, for others who may struggle with this, or for me, if I should need to hear it again in the future, I answer those questions.

All of Heaven and Earth proclaim the glory of God to those who have ears to hear. Everything beautiful points to God. He does not have to sign his name at the bottom of the painting for us to know the strokes of the Master who created it. I do not have to shout to those around me for them to see Him at work in my life. In fact, many won’t listen unless you speak softly. Christian literature is for Christians. Atheists and agnostics do not purchase the latest Love Inspired titles. They do not read Karen Kingsbury books. Christians do. And there’s nothing wrong with that. There is a place for those works.

There is also a place for the works of Christians that do not keep to those tight restrictions of content. There is a place for works by Christians that are relatable for non-Christians. There is a place for Middle Earth and Narnia, worlds where perhaps the Gospel is there, but it isn’t obvious and it doesn’t beat you about the head. That place is where my foul-mouthed, gypsy-cursed Hungarians belong. That is the place where my timid, pyrokinetic redhead belongs. That is the place where my genetically-altered government assassin belongs. That is where my writing belongs. It belongs on a shelf not labeled Christian, where someone might pick it up, and believe that it is beautiful and be interested in the soul that it came from. And when they go looking for that soul, they will find this place. This little spot on the internet where I have poured out my heart about what God is doing in my life. And I have been vulnerable and imperfect and I’ve shown a true face to the world. And maybe, on that day, they’ll believe.

And maybe they won’t.

It doesn’t matter. What matters is that all things beautiful show God’s face to the world. And I want to write beautiful things. And no matter what I think a Christian should be writing doesn’t matter. Because a Christian should be writing what is inside them to be written. Especially when God tells them to.


Posted February 18, 2015 by Maidenfine in God, Writing

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30 Days of PreWriting, Day 25   Leave a comment

Today’s Link:

I’ve pretty much linked to as many sites as you could possibly need for NaNoWriMo. Now, it’s time to talk about the other things you’ll need to think about in order to prepare for the month. Like stockpiling chocolate. Or figuring out what 1667 words looks like and how long it takes you. Personally, I know that I can hit that wordcount in an hour, if I’m inspired. Am I inspired every day of November? No. Not generally. But if a scene is going well, my fingers will fly and it’s wonderful. And then, usually, the next scene sucks the life out of me and I hate it and it’s like typing through mud and takes a couple hours. But after 3 years of NaNo (and two wins), I know that those scenes are not the majority. So I push through. And then there’s a scene around the corner that’s not completely evil.

30 Days of PreWriting, Day 18   Leave a comment

Today’s Link:

Today’s link might seem like we’re going backwards, but I realized that while I talked about this at the Worldbuilding presentation, I don’t think I got around to posting anything about it here. At this point, you may have an idea, maybe even an outline. But there will be a time during November when you will feel like that’s not enough. You’ll sit at the keyboard one day and think “What the hell do I write next?” And here’s what you’ll do.

1.Look at your outline. Really, it might be as easy as that. You look and remember “Oh yeah, Bob’s gall bladder tries to burst out of him like an alien today.” Crisis abated.
2.Look at your notes. There may be ideas in there that didn’t make it into your outline. Maybe you could write a scene between Evil McEvilpants and his elderly mother. It doesn’t even have to be something that would end up in a final draft. You just want to get those fingers going.
3.Come up with something. Here’s where it’s a good idea to be prepared. Take a look at the list of places to find inspiration. Pick a few of those things and have them on-hand for days when inspiration is slower to wake up than you are.
4.Use any tools that your wonderfully awesome ML has given you. In our region, we give out plot ninjas, charts with ideas, and little games to help you come up with things to get you out of a problem.
5.If all else fails, kill someone. It won’t work in every novel, but it’ll work in most. You don’t have to kill off your main characters. But even in our example novel, I’m sure you could come up with a few possible paths if say, Evil McEvilpants’ mother were to die. Or, what if Joe’s rich uncle died and left him cash. He suddenly wouldn’t be as interested in making sure The Big Thing succeeded, since he’d now have the funding he needed for his invention. Death always gets things going. But definitely try to find other ways first. Unless you’re writing horror. In that case, kill away.